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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 14:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I write beautiful poetry .

I waited trembling.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was seconnd youngest,

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Why does the God of the Bible condemn homosexual acts?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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What did i know ?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

What is it that gives a man who is a submissive cock sucker his most pleasure?

So whats the point in blame.

She married twice! .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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She loved him until the end.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

When she asked me how she looked .

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Especially a lifetime of it.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was in good health!

We all went to grammer schools

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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But ive been too sick for many years..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I have no regrets .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

But it wasn’t much.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She wouldn,t have been !

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But, we were locked up after school.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Put me off passion for life!!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Why did i forgive my father ?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I think the readers, may guess!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I will be 64.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Ive learnt so much.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We were not on the streets..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I was scared of men, in general

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

(And it was in our own minds.)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My life is so biszare .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was 9 years of age.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He resisted the act ,that day.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He knew the spot.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

This is soul school!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Who then, do I blame.?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

So, i spoilt her more .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

One cannot live in the past .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I could never make a relationship work though!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was very sick at this time too.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She found it foreign!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And i lived it daily.

I said to her

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I don,t even have a pension.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Comes on , in middle age.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My family never makes their pension either.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

All the time i was locked up.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Would this be the day?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Im still living with it.